Against all odds

I won't hide it
I never really did like to work
Not back home, not where everybody was an asshole
But I do like to work in America
I do like it when people are amazed by the fact that I'm a fast learner
And that I have strong work ethic
I'm amazed too, I didn't think I had it in me

The fist bumps
The "good work, man" or "why can't the rest work like you ?" and "dude, this guy is ready !"
The pat on the back
The teamwork and camaraderie that I've witnessed
It's great and I'm emerging as a leader and a strong worker
I've advanced like no other in less than 2 weeks
I'm not blowing my own horn here, I'm just glad to know I'm not a failure
And that I am going to survive in this world
I wasn't sure I had it in me
But it feels great to know I'm not useless

"Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn"

I miss all the people I left behind
And I'm sorry I can't help them out
Because some of them need help

But I do miss them dearly
And I miss her a hella lot
But I will come back
And I will set the record straight
And drag everybody with me
To better days

"Everybody come take my hand
 We'll walk this road together, through the storm
 Whatever weather, cold or warm
 Just let you know that, you're not alone"

 I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
 Now some of  you might still be in that place
 If you're trying to get out, just follow me
 I'll get you there"

Being the dark horse and against all odds has been the story of my life
And every single time I got it done

Forward

I can hear my train comin'
It's a lonesome and distant cry
I can hear my train comin'
Now I'm runnin' for my life


What makes a man
Walk away from his mind?
I think I know
I think I might know

Is to rise to the challenge at hand
And make the best of it

I miss all of 'em back home
Because I'm just plain human and I still have a soul

But when that train started to move
I knew there was no returning from this one

Curse

It's not really fair
It never was
I do miss her dearly

If I had met her a bit earlier
I wouldn't have left the country
It would've been better as a whole

But it is what it is
She said she was going to wait for me
And I said I was going to get back to her

As we waved goodbye when the train started leaving
I suddenly realized that it'll be hard
But if she's gonna wait for me ..

.. well, that would make me very happy
And if it'll work out in the end
I'll know she's a keeper for a long, long time

She is a keeper
But I can't keep her right now
I will try my best to keep her, even if I'm away

It's never really fair, is it ?
It could've been the perfect scenario
Completely burn my past and demons
Open up a bright future

Just to see it put on pause

I just hope it's temporary

Because I was happy for the first time in years
And I don't think I have it in me to wait some more years
To just be happy

All alone

Literally, nobody knows what the fuck I've been through in the past 3 days
Nobody knows what was in my soul and heart
Nobody can understand really, at least not my friends
They haven't lived these kind of moments

Flying all by yourself on the other side of the world
Not knowing what the shit are you supposed to do
Hearing that your job got terminated and that you had to go in a different city

Flying into New York at night
With nobody to greet you, nobody to help you
Having no place to sleep nor knowing how the hell to get to Pittsburgh

Phone's dead, use a payphone
Hang around JFK hoping for better moments
Thinking about all the people back home

But on a cold, lonely night in JFK
A new part in me unleashed itself
A part that knew that I had to get shit done
Do or die

Flew for 10+ hours
I fucked around JFK a whole night
Took a shuttle bus to Point Authority
Booked the most ghetto ass bus ever to Pittsburgh
It took another 12 hours to get there
Rode the bus with meth heads, rappers, some high school drop outs, fat people
One really cool dude was on the bus, but he got off after a couple of hours
Didn't sleep all the way
Got to Pittsburgh and fucked around for another couple of hours to catch the bus to the Airport
Was the only white dude in the damn waiting place
Got to the airport at night, no housing, nobody to greet or help me out
Finally solved the housing problem
Got there
Could barely sleep, just another cheap ass motel owned by some Indians that barely speak any English
Showered after two days of traveling in the same clothes

The shit I got myself into is so much bigger than myself
I just hope for the best and pray for it
I don't know how this will pan out in the end
Or who will I be in 3 and half months from now
Just like a guy in the picture
It'll be a mystery right up until the end
I just hope my "do or die" approach will keep me going
That and all of my thoughts to all the people I left back home

I never thought I'll be here
Now I am
And I gotta make it work

So help me God