Born and Raised

New Disorder, Electric Castle, Dorna, Summer Well, Smida, Warsaw, the sea
All these peculiar places and feelings, new kisses and rooms
Stress induced weight loss, saturation of the corporate well, endless soul wandering
Loss of belief in chance and faith.

The sound of settling and maturing boomed
Shrieking has adulthood crept upon oneself
But the kerfuffle has grown too strong
To make a choice, an utter unshakeable decision.

I am here. But I'm never really there. And I will never be whole in one place alone.

I've lost all direction
I've lost all my direction
And now I wish, that I would have believed
Could have believed

New Disorder 2000 - Part Two - Golden Age

Golden Age; plural noun: golden ages
an idyllic, often imaginary past time of peace, prosperity, and happiness.

General wellness and satisfaction has touched and influenced every major civilization,
Every city state,
Any tribe throughout human history,
Each individual that has ever roamed the face of the Earth.

When something comes along and flips your world upside down
And while your world is perfectly fine
It seems that this flip can and has caused a rapture in said world.

A random encounter that has evolved
Into something that can make one dance like an idiot
And feel #noshame about it
But one that can also bring down all known Universe build in the last few years.

And every time I let you leave
I always saw you coming back to me

New Disorder 2000

From that earth shattering night
Almost five years ago.

The balance in human interactions had shifted
And that the inner demon that plagues every male being
Was and is so much awake in him.

All the random meet-ups, all the scents, all the foreign rooms, the new bodies
The dancing, the talking, the getting to know
The kiss that sealed the deal,

Were never enough and they will never be
As the soul will forever roam thinking if this is the right choice
Since it grows tired of the same perfume
And will forever seek a new one.

If I was scared
I would
And if I was pure
You know I would
And if I was yours
But I'm not