A paradise

With everything going to shit so quickly
One song is stuck in the mind

A paradise

Noctua lost

The soul sucking past has been left
The promised future has been started
But why does it all feel wrong?

Changing the scenery promised better times and feelings
But relegating from a leader to your average Joe
Albeit a desired wish for so long
Why does it feel so wrong?

The uncertainty, the lack of knowledge, the confusion
Missing all the familiar scenes and people
Inside jokes and sayings
Why does it feel so wrong to not have them anymore?

Everything I wished for when I was 23 has been achieved
Wishes started from that one dreadful night
Yet it feels like something is missing,
Like that one final piece of the puzzle.

But what is the final piece of the puzzle?

Confusion is the word and there's no end in sight
Where are we to go from here? To whom? To what? Why keep going forward?
Why go downtown to get drunk? Why leave the house anyway?

Putting more makeup on the masks that we wear
Turning our nightlights on in the daytime to scare