My God rest your soul
You deserve it

A Tree For All These Problems

Each passing day
In which he's dying
Is a day in which I feel helpless

The prophetic pillar
In which I have to gather everyone around
Is non existent
I'm exhausted, fatigued, done

1200 over time hours, 149.50 extra working days
All for a beautiful Christmas
A Christmas that barely escaped the darkness
A darkness that lingers

I drink the day away
To make it nice in my head
But when I wake up
It's even worse

Seeing her cry everyday as he passes away
Simply demolishes me
And I can't get it all together
To make it alright for everyone, as I envisioned when I took up the extra hours

I'm a horrible person,
Fuck this year,
I just hope it's going to get better in the future

Although darkness will first follow,
The funeral,
The bad things.

There's no hope and maybe everything will turn around
Not for me
But for the rest of y'all

"Though to say we got much hope
If i am lost it's only for a little while

When faced with darkness,
There is opportunity for light "  

No, it isn't

150, 134, 127, 124, 123.40, 117, 114
All hours
All hours I will never recover
Moments and nights I will never regain
Moments and nights I've spent working, slaving the day away

This whole year has been a bust
I'm a horrible person and I can barely go to bed at night anymore
To hell with this place, to hell with all related to it, to hell with it all
Forever the dark horse, forever broken

So please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you

13-14

Receiving a price for a feat
That would've been better if completed in a better place
But I'll take it as it is

Still,
The roar, the restlessness, the need for change
A change on my terms
Is present and harder to control

"Nights like this I become afraid
Of the darkness in my heart
Hurricane"

No space among the clouds

I've accomplished what was set in my mind
In that agonizing and uplifting year of 2012

Now where do I go? What do I do?
Is the past an option? The present?
What do I want from the future?

Time goes by and the urge to change everything lurks ever so persistent
Do I want to start from scratch, like 2012, when everything was bad?
But now everything's good?

There's a light up ahead but it's a mysterious one.

Deluxe 100S

"It was at times a long, difficult road.
But I'm glad it was long and difficult,
Because if I hadn't gone through hell to get there,
The lesson might not have been as clear"

As nights went by while sitting in the office
During a late night cigarette
I took the time be grateful for that one night
That one night two years ago
That changed it all..

Hard to see

Who is gonna break the ice
No room for shallow alibis
Who will be the first to bite?
Until we keep on playing nice
Until the next time..

3 people for 2 or only 1 promotion spot
Am I ready for it?
Will I be able to quell the subsequent storm?

Piano

It's times like these that make you realize that life isn't holding still
Time flies and it will not break its course

I'll be there for you, now more than ever
I know, nobody saw it coming
But you're strong and you'll find it within to move forward
While respectfully paying tribute to those who no longer are with us
Because life isn't holding still

Unbroken

I remembered why
As some things and habits never change
Pretty predictable
I remember why I let it all go

Was given
Was expected