Sometimes shit seems to break down
Sometimes I seem to break down
But I never give up
Because I was raised relentless

Thinking about home reminds me how everything is falling apart
But I'm going to get shit back together
No matter how

That's why I work 16 hours a day
Thru pain and utter hell
I want to help the people that once helped me
No matter the battering or the costs I take
Or my body, for that matter

And it's the stars
They shine for you

They may not shine for me
I have been the dark horse and the underdog all of my life
And I'm never going to give up

Not now
Nor ever

Do or die
That's why I came here

To get shit done
And help everyone

That's how I roll

Heinrich Maneuver

Life has a funny way of balancing shit out
Just when you're about to snap and punch people in the throat
That's when shit changes

It just changed
And I got that boost in moral that made me go on
Got to spend pretty much the coolest day/night in last 2 months
The past week has been all good shit, all day long
Damned if I know how the Universe works

Sometimes I wish I never came here, sometimes I wish this would never end
Sometimes I'm lost
But sometimes I'm on top of the world

Right now, I'm on feel good streak

Toughness

Mental toughness
Because the dark part of my mind is a sleeping monster
And it feels like it's trying to wake up
For the first time in months
Because nothing is ever fair

As it seems things are falling apart back home
Or was it just an illusion the whole time ?

Most probably not
But it feels like shit is fading away

Mental toughness is what I've got left
As I battle fatigue and injuries
I keep a happy face tho
Because the people around me make me smile

It's better that no one knows what's really going on inside of my head
Because here
I'm somebody else
Someone I barely even recognize
But in a good way

*Fate don't fail me now
I'm me
All that I believe I set myself free
So take all the time you need
And let yourself be

I'm as fucked up as they say
I can't fake the daytime
Found an entrance to escape into the dark
Got false lights for the sun
It's an artificial nocturne*