Strangeness and charm

It's been a year since the Universe rewired everything for me
From the chaotic destruction path that seemed to be the end of me
To the emotional and physical roller coaster that followed

But a great roller coaster

It took the strength of three men to get up
Hell, I even worked like three men at three different jobs on a different continent
Eventually it paid off
All of it

The hell, the misery, the feeling of never recovering
To the amazing turnaround both for me and everything that surrounded me
Shadows of the past used to surround me
Now only the pretty clouds of the present and future do

I longed wished to be able to show this future to my past self
So he would no longer despair
It was for the best I couldn't

The joy and satisfaction would have not been the same

Peace, calmness and a place to feel important to people
That's all I always wanted
After all these years
These character toughening year

Re-sparking old friends and good feelings
Discipline and self confidence
A clear head and a strong drive

Everything fell to pieces
And now I have to make sure this place will last
As this place is real
For once

"A pattern to pattern
 Can you see it on me love
 Atom to atom
 What's the matter with me love"

Strangeness and Charm

That's what
Always there, forgot how to use them properly