Who/How/When

Battered and shattered
Who's going to save me soul ?
Because I've been battered and shattered for far too long

I don't know for how long I'll be able to keep the happy face up
The lie that I'm ok with being friends and being happy about it
It doesn't hurt as bad as it did in the past
But it's still a huge load to carry around and lie about

And the fact that I never got a second chance
Never got a second chance even if I changed so much in better in so many ways
For only one person
Is probably why I never really moved on
Because there's always that thought that maybe there was a way to make it work
And since I was never allowed to try
It keeps hanging around in my mind ..