Futures/past

A dear friend of mine got a new girlfriend
She annoys me
Or at least she did this summer
All God damn summer
I hope he gets the peace and love he's been searching for a while now

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His ex is concerned
She thins she's just toying with him
Just trying to forget her past by using him
She's willing to cheat on him
Just to forget her past
Her tears made me realize she literally cares
For his well being
She made me realize that ex-es can care
So much that they really want happiness for their past better halves
That she told me she is going to break that girl in half
If she fucks him over

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Remember how I made fun of people ?
Of people that had commitment issues ?
That they couldn't commit whatsoever ?
That's what you gave me
"Feelings change", the classiest break-up ever known by man kind
Now every time I talk to a girl or do more than that
I always think
She likes me = we make out = we go out = she dumps me
Now I can't trust a girl
At all
Now I'm just another asshole with huge ass luggage after him
Will I ever be able to find someone ?
No thanks to you, fucking me up so bad

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Went to a bar
An ex of mine got tangled up with some dude
Got to observe a number of girls
I realised how my other ex picks up morons
Made me disappointed
Reminded me how she used when nobody was there
But the second she found someone, she forget me
Of course
Thank you ever so much

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An ex told me I'm the best ex-boyfriend she ever had
Even if we had our downfalls and shit over the years
It still made me feel good
Somebody actually told me for real
That I was good at something
Even if it was in past

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I clashed with somebody today
But I don't care
I won
I'm giving up weight and winning fights
And that's all that matters to me
Someday .. a girl will sweep me of my feet
And show me that all hope is not lost

3:49

I just wanna break you down so badly
While I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

Cluj party time

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought
of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter
in every single word
There will be a hidden message
about a boy that loves a girl

There was a boy
There was

But he hopes you'll have fun with all the morons you've attracted
Morons who are so better than him
HAHA, not

So what if I'm drunk ?
My heart is in the right place
And I know I was nothing more than a plan E

There's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is

I know it, I feel it

MRU

Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
And where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

It's the room, the sun and the sky
The room, the sun and the sky

I've been waiting
I've been waiting for this moment for a long time

CBC HNIC

So many people, so many opinions

Really ? I should cut it out ?

I will

Your gonna wish you never had met me

Consistency, heart, pride, inspiration, strength, devotion, endure, fire

For a better tomorrow

Front row

I always believed in futures

I hope for better in November

I try the same losing lucky numbers

Help, I'm alive

Is it ever gonna be enough ?

NJ

The history, the stories from it
Every moment, every memory is so big

Sometimes I cross the line, too much intensity
You have to feel that heat
So many emotional swings

So sudden, that’s it
It’s over

It’s been a long, tough grind
And here it is
I don’t know which emotion is stronger
The pain of losing you or the thought that I’m not good enough anymore

I don’t know if I’ll wish you well from now on for all the great moments
Or if I’ll hate you for all the moments you made me go through hell ..

I'll miss you
But I know you won't

Wish

Sometimes I wish I could never care for people
At all

Over

A little more not to collapse

8.06

It's been a long, tough grind

But I'm getting there

Madness fills my heart and soul, as if the great divide could swallow me whole

Finally, a breakthrough

Time

And they say heroes are made in the time of crisis

10:45

I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up
If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Collapse

Need not to collapse

You gotta live in the moment
That's what life is about
That moment
We're going to find out a lot about ourselves
You gotta live in the moment

Tired

Live fast and die young

But damn, that shit makes you really, really tired ..

Not now, no ever

Never again will there be good deeds from my part

Never again will I gonna be nice about it

Never

Not now

Not never.

It's time to make a stand.

Hmm

I've got this far

Now what the hell do I do with it ?

Do I really want it ?

Damn